Do you every feel stressed? Do you every feel overwhelmed?.. ok now i am sounding like an infomercial ; ) But really? Well thats how I have felt the past couple months. There are so many exciting events happening this year and so many things in store for Drew and I but I just feel.. well stressed out.
I am pretty darn good about hiding “stress” emotions. Drew may beg to differ, but at work, with my friends, etc, I tend to always take the glass half full approach. If I have a bad day and vent on facebook with a 12 year old status update, people are shocked. People wonder what in the world is going on if Tara said something negative haha. If people only knew what I would REALLY like to say. haha kidding.. kind of. I know the things that stress me out are things that may not really matter when it comes down to it, but a girl can only handle so much!
For example, last december.. we found a house, a perfect house, in the same neighborhood as my mom and sister perfect house… everything was going smoothly and then bam it was not good.. then the next day it was looking to be better then BAM we are not moving. Our entire house was packed up and the utilities were scheduled to be turned off. Safe to say my glass was most certainly not half full that day, I wanted to take the box of glasses packed up and throw it across our empty house! Talk about a flipping roller coaster! I know this has happened to a lot of people, so I am sure some of you can relate. It was an absolute nightmare! We are in the process now of looking for our next “perfect” home. To say I have anxiety is an understatement. Lets just hope I dont pack my entire closet in my car and the same thing happen again ; )
Then you add the stress of wanting to start a family. If I want something, I want it immediately, like the next day haha. Of course starting a family isnt THAT easy. It takes time and ugh, patience. Who has time to be patient ; ) All kidding aside, I know it will happen when it supposed too. Lets just hope it happens this year ; )
I am not trying to sit here and throw a pity party for myself, althought it would be one well decorated party; ), I know I live a very blessed life and have SO much to be thankful for. I just needed to take a momemnt to blog vent. Because well, this is my blog and I will vent if I want too ; )